Fall is my favorite time of the year. It always has been. As a child I can remember raking piles and piles of leaves in our yard and then jumping in them. We had a lot of trees so we would have tall mounds of leaves to jump in. I love the smell of fall, the colors of fall. It feels comforting to me when school starts and the weather begins to change. I like to cook a pot roast with potatoes and carrots and I love to get a new handbag and a new pair of shoes. Colored leaves, pot roast, school supplies, schedules back in place, new shoes…
I just recently have put language or have attempted to put language to why my insides begin to yearn for fall. Fall means change and dying. Not in a morbid way. In a good way. For me it becomes a season of letting things die. The things I don’t need to carry on can go. This is not easy but necessary. The paradox of losing life to find life speaks to me during this season. A time to reflect and look at my life. That way of coping with stress, or that way of being in relationship with others or some ways of thinking have to be surrendered in order to find new life.
Fall reminds me of all the “little” deaths Jesus invites me to in order to make room for new life. Death, dying to the large or even the small things that are necessary in my life comes to me with a natural instinct to fight rather than surrender. Surrender becomes my spiritual work – this season reminds me there are things to let go of, let them fall away. I think that’s why I feel the comfort that comes from a fall dinner of pot roast, or a new pair of shoes…some how it eases just a bit of the letting go…

Church of the Savior and other thoughts

Five years ago I read, “Call to Commitment” by Elizabeth O’Connor. Elizabeth’s written record of the journey of the COS was more than inspirational to me. It was a large piece in informing the paradigm shift that I and my fellow travelers at VCC were experiencing.

Sometime after first reading Call to Commitment, I had a dream. It was a short dream. At the time our church was renting space for our worship gathering in the basement of another church. In my dream, I was sitting with about 12 other people in that space. Elizabeth O’Connor was sitting on a high stool with a music stand in front of her and she was teaching us.
Since that dream I have embraced Elizabeth O’Connor as one of my mentors. She and her colleagues at COS have taught me a great deal on how to think about things such as:

  • What is the essence of Church in our context?
  • How do we encourage VCC members to work primarily outside of the internal community of VCC in mission groups that bring healing in the personal, local and global realm of life? How do we look to see what God is doing in this world and become participants in God’s redemptive work.
  • How do you continually hold paradox while leading a local congregation committed to a center set model of belonging?
  • Where do call, gifting, passion, talent fit in the journey

  • How to live in the tension of belonging to a community where the redemptive work and purposes of God occurs without falling into delusion (think Bonhoeffer here) of finding a community where everyone is mature, healthy and like-minded.

  • To appreciate the Church in all its forms

  • Later I will post on Turning Point One Year Later

Book Recommendations – Thanks

Thanks for the recommendations. I have already read several of them. Here are a few I am going to begin with:

  • “Leadership Without Easy Answers”
    Ronald Heifetz
  • “Living on the Boundaries: Evangelical Women, Feminism And the Theological Academy”
    Nicola Hoggard Creegan
  • “Appreciative Inquiry: A Positive Revolution in Change”
    David L Cooperrider
  • I will try to do a one paragraph review…Thanks!


Thanks to Dr. Winn I have a new home for my blog. It looks this this format will be easier for a non techy person like me to navigate. Testing my skill, I would will try to:

  • make a list
  • list a category
  • publish this post